Things have got me down

Things have got me down

First off half our leaders in the US are criminals and traitors. I am referring to the entire GOP party. They tried to over turn or stop a peaceful transfer of power. If it were up to me, every one of them would be removed from their seats and put in prison for treason. But for some reason, all have escaped any accountability. The Republicans tried to cheat and with violence tried to stop the transfer of power. They wanted to change the system that has been in place since 1776. Thats simply not right. The GOP lie all the time, and Trump won’t see the inside of a prison cell. Secondly, you have all these shootings and murders. I try to limit my news intake, but I want to be kept up to speed with events happening in the US and the world. I have to hear of all these gory and horrible murders.

I have feelings

I genuinely do have feelings for innocent people who got murdered, or hurt and injured in some way. I also get sick when I see bad people prosper. The bad people are mainly the Republicans. But toxic people like Alex Jones. How the fuck did that guy have one billion dollars?? A person like that was able to amass so much money on what he does? It makes me want to vomit. So I get depressed on what individual citizens do to each other, and I get upset what some fringe pseudo famous people do and how they prosper. I think the US culture and value system in the US is morally bankrupt. It really makes me want to vomit what people do in the United States of America. Where are the ethics? The codes to live by? What did the parents do to all these damaged people?? Thank God my parents instilled in me basic codes and values to live by. I am not just some random scumbag, like so many people are.     

I am simply stuck in a certain place

My current situation is kinda stagnant. I am kinda stuck at the parents house. I do help them around the house. So I know I am needed here. I am frustrated because I may have had an opportunity to leave the house and be with some cool people. I blew my chances and I don’t think they would reach out to me again and give me another chance. If i were to get another chance from them, it would cheer me up. I can be a funny person, in person. Anyway, I don’t have the means to reach out. They were attentive in my life for a while, and I bet certain people know me. Or know of me. Not that I am a big deal or anything, but I have  been around.  I may have  been a little frightened to accept a face to face meeting from these people. Not sure. It would be great if I were to be kept in the loop. Then again, that is not for me to decide. I never decided on things. 

Lansing library

I don’t really live in Chicago. I live in this boring town South of Chicago called Lansing. It’s pretty boring and I am tired of this town. I could use to get away for a bit. Anyhow, since COVID I have been a homebody. Eventually I will start hanging out at my local library. Not sure maybe on Fridays in the morning. We shall see. Ever since COVID I have been nervous to spend time away from my basement computer room. Ill have to try and get out of the  basement and into the library. The library is a nice, quiet environment to meet nice people I figure. We shall see what happens.