Reputation

What is my reputation?

In my posts on this website, I keep saying “I got involved in something” Its not criminal or anything. I think I may be “known” by certain people. Also maybe I am soon forgotten. I am not sure. I do know that strange things have been happening to me off and on for many years. I am wondering if I made any enemies out there. I sure hope not.  I like to think that I have a good reputation or simply am an good citizen.

Feeling down

I’ve been feeling down and frustrated the last few months. Its now June 2022. I am diagnosed with bi-polar and Generalized Anxiety . I applied for my SSID (Social Security Disability), I have been waiting for over 3 years. So my life is in a holding pattern. I am 50 years old and I want to actually do things and travel and see places. I can’t do anything until I get a final decision on my SSID claim. I have no funds in the bank to do anything. I see the world pass before my eyes and everyone else is doing things, but I cant!

My aunt

My aunt recently went into the hospital. I have this feeling she is not going to make it out. She is 93 and lives in Florida. She was always a nice lady to me and my sister. I love her. I hope that she is comfortable and not frightened. If she does get out of the hospital, I hope they can find a nice nursing home for her.

Changes in my life

I am 50 and was raised in a sheltered environment. I depend on my mom and dad and sister. I am afraid what happens when I don’t have my parents anymore. I am really scared. I know that everyone dies. My family right now are getting older, as I am.  I tell you one thing, its hard to find friends that will care about you as much as your family. Anyway, I sit and watch all my family get older. That also depresses me and makes me anxious.