Keeping life simple

Simply is probably best

For a while I wanted maybe a more complicated life. Well, I wanted a more exciting life. I kinda still do want some type of new, big and exciting event or thing in my life. I probably once had the opportunity to have more excitement in my life. I may have had the chance to meet certain, interesting people. I missed my chances and at 53 years old, not sure if any other chances will come my way. I missed my past chances because I did not have enough confidence in myself and I was not able to let myself step out of my comfort zone. So I may have missed out on lots of stuff with certain people. I do kick myself mentally every so often about missed chances. I have now finally settled things for now and decided on a simple life. Helping my elderly parents. That is a big one. I want to try and repay them for all their love and guidance, everything they gave me. Also try and be a good brother to my older sister.

What I would like

Right now I am not able to do anything because I am waiting on my Social Security claim. I waited over 6 years. I am going to have to wait more time. It would be really helpful if I got my Social Security. But besides that, I would like to travel out West one day. I have a lady friend in Utah I met on Twitter. At first I thought it would be romantic, but I think it will be just friends. Which takes pressure off of me. Also I think that friends is more simple and practical. I’d like to photograph the deserts of California and explore the American Southwest more. Try to do some hiking and lose weight. Right now my life is in a holding pattern.

What I should probably forget happened

In my life certain events have happened to me. Things I probably should forget. It hurts when I try and go over certain events and situations that I may have been in. Certain people came into my life and I maybe don’t realize who or what or how many people. One day it would be nice if one of them would try and reach out to me again. A friendly hello at a store or whatever. I am not really such a bad person for wanting this I suppose. We will see. I try to allow myself to be approachable when I am at stores or the library. Its kinda stupid to think this way, I should probably forget certain things. We shall see. I am only 53 so maybe in a few years something good will happen?