I’m a fucking loser

I am a loser

I suck at everything  I do or attempt to do. I am good at photography, however I suck at making money or gaining any type of attention or credibility with it. I have no money now to go anywhere or do anything. I have not taken any new photos in over 3 years. I live with my parents and have to help them out. They are in their 80s. I can’t leave them at the house. I wanted to leave my house and maybe had an opportunity to leave but I screwed it up as I screw up everything I come in contact with!

Years of games

Not only do I suck, I have had years (off  and on) just bullshit happening to me. I tried to join an art gallery. Now they seem to not invite me anymore to their shows. I have no idea what I may have done. I tried joining other galleries.  No luck. It seems no one wants anything to do with me or my artwork.

Childish threat?

I said this before among others. I may simply disappear away from my parents house. Drive off into a desert or a forest and never be seen again. I swear to fucking God. I have thought of this for a long time. No one will find my body.