I doubt anyone really reads this

I doubt anyone really reads this site

I have had this site and another site up for over 17 years. Never one response or comment. Never any emails through my contact page form. For some reason maybe some people were upset that I was chatting on Twitter before. However I think they may have arranged a meeting with me of sorts. I was not doing anything with malice or intention. I have since been banned from Twitter yet again. Mainly for voicing my political side.

These people

I am pretty sure that these people who I hope are my friends have gotten to know me in their ways. I know for a fact there must have been some type of effort done to surveille me. Were my phones compromised? My computers?  Something very sophisticated went on in my life. I am left with questions. Maybe one day these people will reveal themselves to me and clue me in? This country is pretty big, and there are so many places to go. Maybe our paths will cross again?

I am wondering

I really wonder if these people who I want to call my friends read this site? Or is it just me just jerking off by writing things and no one is reading? In any event, I am simply practicing my writing skills I guess. Currently my life is in a holding pattern. I wait for my Social Security Disability claim. Until anything happens with SSID, I can’t do or go anywhere from my parents house. I am frustrated. I want to do things in my life, see things. Photograph things and places. Yet, I have to sit in my parents dark basement in my computer room. Writing on this website is free. In the event anyone knows what went on in my last therapy session and you are reading this, I want to say I am sorry that I made the wrong choice. I know that the one guy said “We are done”. The therapy setting was a little awkward for me from my stand point. The whole situation, whatever it was simply was freaking me out a bit. I was freaking out about things. I meant no malice or disrespect.