I could have been somebody

I suppose I could have been somebody

With the events of my past and the people and their lives that intersected with my life, I suppose I could have been somebody had I made some choices in my past. I am 53 and I feel that I missed out on many things in life. I have regrets. It’s not that I made wrong choices in life, I simply did not make a choice at critical moments in my past. That left me kinda alone and abandoned by certain people or a certain group. I suppose I could have been with this group, but I think I burned through my chances. I remain pretty much a simple, common and small person. Just one out of several million people on the North American land mass. I am 53 and consider myself at “half time” in my life. Provided I live till 100 years old. I am hoping that I did not frustrate certain people that already know of me, and maybe by some chance our lives will intersect again. I know they were at my group therapy sessions at Ingalls hospital at least two times. I still don’t know how they pulled that off.  For that reason I may go back to Ingalls for group therapy. Not sure if they would have their associates in group sessions with me again.

I am open to a friendship

I am keeping myself open to a friendship between the people hidden  behind past events in my life. It may happen, I don’t think I had a chance to do anything wrong to these people. I barely knew what was going on or being discussed on  my behalf. I am sure my name was uttered by certain people, I am not sure what attitude they had while uttering my name. I don’t even know if they moved on from me. I am not a very interesting person, so I suppose they have moved on.

I have a single important job

Even though I had these mysterious events in my life, I have to focus on my current duties. I have to take care of my parents. My dad just had a health scare that sent him to the hospital. I thought he had a stroke and had all the tests conducted on him. He is in perfect health, he did not suffer a stroke. Thankfully. So now I am sorting his medications and making sure he takes them correctly. I also do grocery shopping for my parents. I am trying to be a good son, and a decent citizen. I really wish “certain people” would read this website and read that I am open for a face to face meeting with certain people that were behind events in my past. However, I never could force people into doing anything. I had no control over other people. I can only say, I am open for a friendship.  A person can never have enough good friends.