I am not able to travel

I am not able to travel right now

It’s been killing me inside. I have not been able to travel for the last few years. I have no funds and I don’t have any friends that I can travel with . I want to go to so many places and document my travels with photos and video. Its been eating me up inside. I get jealous of people that can travel. I want to see Europe. Italy, France, the UK. I want to goto Germany again. I am stuck at the parents. I feel like I am dying and wasting time in my life. I am already 50. If I am lucky maybe only 20 more years? I don’t know how long I will live.

I am fucking jealous

Many people don’t understand the what a gift it is to travel and see different places and things. I am so jealous of the rich and famous. They get to see lots of things in their life time. I only see these four walls for the past few years. I am dying here in within this foundation.

One day maybe

One day maybe I can meet people that I can travel with? Dunno. Maybe one day I can travel again? I really hope so. I want to so badly see other things in person.

I had to stay around

I wanted to leave my family, but I had to stay to help my mom and dad.  My dad had chemo and was weak. I had to help him. My dad got better thankfully