Everything on TV depresses me

I try not to watch too much TV

I think its safe to say that everyone on TV depresses me. From the celebrities in either sports, movies or music that all have entirely way too much money for one person on hand, to the rotten Republicans (GOP) traitors that tried to over throw the US Government as we know it. Also all those scumbags making millions on their grifting. Everyone has way too much money on TV. People getting sued for millions, Elon Musk being a billionaire.  Everyone on TV is pretty much richer than I will ever hope to be. Am I jealous? Hell fucking yea. I am a bit bitter that knowing what I know about certain things and events, I don’t have millions of dollars. I am a simple man and I bet I could have sued afew people for the bullshit they were putting me and my family through. However I think I am a good man and I did not push anything.

Nice guys finish last

Christopher Gerhard Trott is a fucking saint of a nice guy. I went though lots of totally unfair bullshit. I have zero money in the bank. I have to worry about my future and am currently fighting with Social Security so that I can receive the little crumb of my money that I worked for since 1988.  The US government wants to take your money each pay check but never wants to give it back. Or start leaking it to you went you are too old to enjoy it. I seriously think lots of people fucked with me and fucked me over. It sucks. I am a fucking nice fool.

I can’t even sell any photos

Even John Wayne Gacey the serial killer could sell his clown paintings from prison. Me, being a nobody can’t even sell one fucking photo online. I can’t attract any interest with my bullshit website (this website). I try and help lots of people however I can. Nothing comes back to me. I am jaded. I have been such a  good friend to the 5 people that I call close friends. Not that I am wanting anything from my immediate friends. I never over step my boundaries in my friendships. If I were to make friends face to face with “big people” I would never impose on my “big” friends. It would just be nice to have big friends, thats my only motive currently.

I’m still going to be nice

Even though I got fucked over in life and in this country by God knows what or who. I still will be friendly to just about anyone I see in the stores or around my town. I have no money to travel and photograph anything. I am 51 still mobile and still have my eye sight, but can’t use those things artistically. Its really fucking frustrating. Meanwhile “artists” on the TV get “discovered” They make a success with their art bullshit. I am still at square one. I am tired of waiting and trying.