Days blend together

Trying to stay healthy first and foremost

Ever since I was diagnosed as type II diabetic, I have been trying to stay healthy. I goto the doctor every three months for blood work. I do this to keep track of my A1C level. Last blood work it was A1C 7.3. A tad high. I take my Metformin each day twice. I take all my meds every day. I don’t exercise, which would help lower my A1C. I kinda am too depressed to exercise. With eating, I stopped paying attention to what I eat. I go back to the doctor September 3rd. I hope my A1C is not crazy high.

I feel like letting everything go

There are some periods of time when I don’t shower for days. I don’t have the energy to get up and wash. Days are blending into one another. I suppose I am clinically depressed. If I got my shit together, I could try to go to group therapy at Ingalls Hospital.  I doubt the certain people that were there once, would re join me there. I pissed away that opportunity. Now I am alone and on my own without their friendships. It makes me more depressed at all the chances I had to network with certain people. I simply was not receptive or did not make a choice. I think these people now think I am not interested. Not at all. My meetings in the past were simply awkward.

I am waiting for my Social Security

I know I passed up many opportunities and I hope that at least I can get my Social Security disability. At least that can go right for me. We will see. It seems like my whole life I am waiting for something good and life changing to happen to me.