Current issues

I don’t know what to do

I have been unemployed and waiting on my Social Security Disability claim. I have been waiting for over 4 years now. I have lots of mental help paperwork. Lots of things are documented and I think I have a valid reason and case. However my social security claim has been denied many times. Its now in federal court. I think I have 6 more months to wait for a new hearing. In the mean time, I can’t work. If I try to become employed, I will void all the work the lawyers have done. So I wait. I am in a holding pattern.

If I can manage working again

The only job I can think of getting is maybe a job with Amazon. Their fulfillment center is located close to me in Monee, Illinois. The only problem with that is working at Amazon is very stressful. It’s essentially 10 hours a day non stop cardiovascular exercise. Also lots of repetitive motion. I am 51 and obese. I don’t know if I could manage to stay employed at Amazon. One perk is Amazon now pays $21/hour. I worked there for 7 months in 2018 and I was originally being paid $13.40 and hour. So Amazon is paying more, but the work is still hard.

Selling my photography

I have had zero luck introducing myself to art galleries in my area. No luck selling my photography online. Hell, no feed back from this website. I feel people simply don’t care about me and my photography. I want to give it up. I have not taken any new photos in over 3 years. Before the COVID pandemic started. I simply am depressed and think that on one cares about my artwork.

I really am depressed and disappointed

I quite honestly feel like a loser. Time and time I have heard people that were successful in their hobbies and side businesses say “If you do what you love, the money will follow”. I have waited and waited and tried and tried. Nothing I do or try bears any success. I am very depressed. All I have to show my work off is this website. Noone has given me any feed back or contacted me via this website. I suppose I only have this website to vent about my personal issues. It’s mainly a writing exercise for me.