Can’t change the past

I will stop whining

I had one feedback comment from someone who seemed to want to give me strong and fair feedback on this website. I have whined about certain things on this site. In a previous post I said I would stop writing on this site. I take that back. I will stop whining. That style of writing does not help and  makes me unattractive. Honestly, I don’t even know why I write out my thoughts on a publicly accessible website. I am actually not that interesting of a person. I suppose I would like to be an interesting person and attract other interesting people to me. Maybe thats why I write about myself on this site?

The real reason

I was writing about past strange opportunities that came to me in my past, because I know I missed these opportunities with “certain” people and I just want to see if I can get the attention of someone who knows what went on in my past to see if they would make the effort to reach out to me again. There are people that know what all my writing and whining is all about on this website. Through inaction on my part, I let past opportunities with certain people slip by me. I will man up and get a grip, and move forward. No more whining.

I’m really not that interesting

I feel I am a good son to my parents, a fairly honest citizen with a set code of ethics. I could be a loyal friend to just about anyone. Just one of billions that are on the Internet looking to become known or acknowledged for one thing or another. If I were to become famous for something positive, could I handle it well mentally? I would like to be known for my work with graphic design and photography.

Being famous

I suppose especially here in the US, where the  machine that produces famous people started manufacturing the first and most world wide famous people, I suppose I am on the Internet and talking about aspects of my life to be part of the whole famous or being known thing. If I did have a chance to become famous, would I run with it? Or would I run back home and hide in my bed from it? I suppose a second option is to have famous friends that can trust me, and I write about myself to put myself out there incase anyone is venturing on christrott.com. As far as I know, I really don’t think many people know about this website.