Becoming happy with myself again

Happy with myself

For decades maybe I was not happy with myself and my life. I am not sure why. I had some strange events happen. Dunno. Ancient history. I am starting to work on myself now. I am on my medications (psych). Also I am eating better and I am exercising now.

Mental

Ill be honest with whoever is reading my humble website. I went through a mental hell. I almost ended it on one trip to the hospital ER. It was very bad. Bad situation. Its scary when a person loses all hope and any feelings for the future. Mentally, I have put myself through the wringer. I must have ended my life over 100 thousand times in my mind. Bad stuff. I hated my appearance and hated myself. I thought I was not worth anything and no one cared.

Physical

With my physical side. I still don’t like my appearance. I am now 50 balding and grey. Also over weight. However now I am doing something about my physical appearance. I am now under 300lbs! I am currently 289lbs. I was 336lbs on August 4th 2021. Now that I am on the other side of 300lbs, I want to lose 40lbs more. Ill be going to the fitness center two towns over. 30 mins each session. I may also start to lift weights too.