Back in therapy

I finally pulled the trigger

I finally called Ingalls IOP group therapy. I am back in group therapy at Ingalls Hospital. I also am seeing an individual therapist. I am trying to pick up coping techniques and tell my story to the people at group therapy. I honestly have nothing else going on. I am trying to do something to better myself. I am still also going to my doctor every three months for blood work. I am taking my diabetes medications to lower my A1C.  My A1C seems to be on  a downward trend, which I am happy about. I don’t want my diabetes causing me anymore problems. I am holding steady on my weight however. I would like to lose more weight.

I’ve been depressed

I have been depressed for months. I wish something good would work out for me. I am starving for something positive to happen to me. I feel numb and apathetic. Each day grinds along, I am numb. I try to keep busy with my little projects around the house. I pretty much have no money and I have no friends. It sucks. I have my parents and my sister. I wish I had friends outside of the family to talk to and hang out with. I probably ruined things between me and certain people. I kick myself every day for what others have done to me in my past.   I  doubt these certain people will ever consider reaching out to me anymore. I probably was not in the right frame of mind when I did have a chance to meet some of them in the past. I would have ruined everything had I actually met them in person. So I guess I will just be by myself.

I stopped going to the gallery

I stopped going to the art gallery in Chicago Heights, Illinois. I give up on my photography. It is useless trying to have prints made and put on display. I have my websites and social media to display my photography. That is enough for me right now. I have not taken new photos in over 5 years.