Social Media

I feel like a loser

I think social media can be a type of poison. I try and use it responsibly. I think social media and any media in general  can be bad in a way. Or maybe its my mental state or my attitude in general. I often compare my life to the lives of people I see on social media and even TV.  I see all these celebrities and famous people on TV. I see they have millions even some billions. What about me? I am living in my parents house. I have skills and talent, but I have hardly any money. However then I look and see that I have my family. I still have my lovely mom and dad. I have a nice sister. So that counter balances my sadness for feeling like a loser. I also think I am a good son.

Comparisons

On thing that anyone should never do is compare themselves to others on TV and social media. That can really hurt a person mentally. I have hurt myself many times this way.

Jealousy

I do try to be honest with myself. I am a bit of a jealous person. I compare my life with other people’s lives. I know its wrong, but I find myself doing this. Even though I do have this jealousy, I will NEVER act out on it. I will never do anything to other because of my jealousy. I suppose I am this way because I have skills in photography, and graphic design, however no one has really acknowledged me for it. I suppose it is petty on my part.

Pettiness

One quality that I try not to have. I really try not to be petty about things. Although I am. I am petty about others having way more money that I will ever be able to have. I am petty about people having several exotic cars. Petty about if others have mansions. Dunno. Then to counter act my pettiness, I also think at 51, I have almost perfect eyesight. I am mobile. I have the ability to walk. I am still fairly healthy. I have all my body parts. So in that way I stop the pettiness. My eyesight to me is highly important.

Grateful

I am grateful for the very simple things. My almost perfect eyesight. The fact that I can walk and move myself. Grateful for my loving mother and father. I hope that I am a good son to them.