I think they forgot about me

Out of sight, out of mind

It was strange. I do have a few mental illnesses. No mind is perfect. But I have to say that most of the time I am fairly logical. I also try to think 20 steps ahead. My friends who may have spent a lot of time seeing where I was in my local area, I think now have forgotten about me. When they were around me, I could tell something was going on. In stores, or therapy, or at local bars. I have developed this sixth sense when it comes to them.

I guess we are done

I may have accidently pushed my luck with one of my friends too far? I heard behind me “We are done” so I guess we are done? My friends seem to be in higher positions over me. I am the lowest on the totem pole and I realize this. I did not want or intend to upset my friends. I was a bit scared, unstable, and nervous about meeting them in person. Hopefully they or some of my friends will know that I did not mean to upset them or any of them. I did want to meet in person, but I was confused as always. Sometimes you have to draw a full diagram until I get a clue.

A card

A nice girl gave me a card. She made me nervous about talking about hell and God. I get nervous talking about religion and religious stuff. It’s not my best topic. I would have liked to be her friend and maybe her friends friend too. Ah well, missed opportunity. I still have the card on my desk. She included a nice photo of her. Ill keep both.

Maybe one day

Maybe one day my friends will come back into my general area and look out for me. Any encounter I have at the grocery store or other places I goto, I am usually pretty open and receiving when people talk to me and start up a conversation. Unless my friends are totally finished with me and don’t have any interest in me anymore. I think these people have invested a lot of time and effort in kinda finding me for some reason. Not sure. Anyway, I guess I will be here poking around my town. Helping my parents out.