I’m just wasting time

It seems nothing good will happen to me

I am now 50 years old. I have had a few adventures in my life. However I think the best is past me. Many missed opportunities. I wrestle with “what ifs”. I feel I am simply wasting my time right now. For years I have  been stagnant. I wasted over three years on a Social Security Disability claim. There is evidence I have mental issues, the lawyer sees it and started a new claim that will take around 2 years to get to again.

I had contact

I suppose I may have had contact with certain people for awhile. Not sure if our paths will cross again. I have to continue to practice discretion over a few past events. These people want it that way, and maybe my silence will benefit me in the future. I was never going to really say anything online in the first place. Hope someone in that group remembers me and maybe comes back for me. We shall see.

Holding pattern

My life remains in a holding pattern. I am simply trying to keep my blood sugar down. Trying to again reduce my A1C and lower my weight. Its all I can do right now. Maybe preparing for something that may come up in my future.