Annoyance

I guess I was an annoyance

I do tend to be an annoying person. I don’t mean it. Sometimes it happens by accident. I am a little brother after all. I met some nice people a few months ago. I would have wanted to hang out with them,  but I got confused. I don’t think I was excessively rude or annoying. It was simple the venue that was a  bit akward. I was not expecting their friendship at that particular meeting point.

I doubt Ill get a second chance

I doubt Ill get a second chance. If I did somehow get a second chance to hang out with these people, I would be very grateful and honored. However its up to them to decide. I can’t force people to hang out with me. I can’t force anyone to be friends with me or have any involvement in my life. All I can do is be as good of a person and citizen as I can. Never in my life have I done anything adverse to anyone.  I act this way because I do think of the afterlife. I like to tread lightly when dealing with potential friends. If I am trustworthy and honest, then I maybe rewarded next time around. Kind of strange right?

Never do anything adverse to others

I know I am a rock solid person. I was raised correctly by two very loving parents. I never would go after anything adversely in a financial way or a physical or mental way. I may have had certain aspects of my life been made not so private by my potential friends. I say my life is an open book. I may or may not have things done to me to kinda spook me. To me this is all water under the bridge. I was a bit upset at certain events, they were causing me a bit of mental stress in my life. But these events are over as far as I am concerned.

Its up to them to decide

I can’t control other people or what they do or say about me. Again, I am still in my area and I do my things. I never turn down a friendly exchange in the grocery store, gym, or art gallery . Or anywhere I am in public. Maybe one day they will want to reach out to me again? I can’t control that. I do know that I am about as honest to my fiends as anyone could be.