General observations

General negative stuff

I have lots of negative stuff personally, I see lots of negative stuff on TV. It’s hard to escape negativity in these days. My personal negative stuff is that I have waited for my Social Security Disability for over 5 years. I kinda feel bad that I put my life on hold for this to go through. However I am at the end of one of my claims. I want to see if I get the claim. Also negative is that I am kicking myself for things that other people did to me in the past. I was put in an awkward situation by certain people. I was psychologically annoyed, and later was given false hope. I am just a simple and normal citizen, it seems like a group of sophisticated people or people in sophisticated positions tried to get me in trouble with certain agencies in the US. When that did not work, they tried to reach out as friends. Either way, I was ganged up on by many people and I had no way to defend myself. It was and is an unfair situation that I have no closure to. I honesty don’t know who these people were and why all the sophisticated weird stuff ? All that weird shit in the past has really changed me and these people will never know. I am always looking over my shoulder and looking around at other people I meet in stores, gas stations, anywhere. I am always looking for alternative motives of other people and the past events that were focused on me in my past, has made me pretty skeptical about other people in general. I never let my guard down. It kinda sucks. But that’s where I am mentally.

Trump’s regime

I can’t believe this sloppy, pedofile, tax cheat, corrupt, criminal, traitor scum bag is president of the United States. This guy is bad, a bad person and he brought bad and weird people into key positions in the United States government. These people are white nationalists and creepy fake religious people. I don’t feel comfortable or confident with these traitors in power and delegating policies in the US. I worry if these Republican traitors will cheat and be successful in cheating in the next Presidential election .  Trump has three more years to do more of this grifting and damage on the people of the United States. He is trying to be a dictator. Hopefully the United States has enough smart, big named and powerful people that will resist Trump and the GOP. For me there is only one valid political party in the United States. The Democrats. I don’t understand why some people are against Democrats so much. Obama made healthcare companies stop discrimination against people with serious medical issues. Democrats to care about the common citizens in this country, they give more to the masses. I just don’t understand these ignorant hillbillies that don’t want Medicaid, their Social Security, and healthcare. I think we should deport all the ignorant hillbillies from the United States and then we can truly make America great.

All this negativity

I seem to be drowning in negativity. On social media and TV I am ignoring Trump and what he says and what his people are saying and doing. I can’t believe there are so many horrible people. Also I try to ignore all the people on the news murdering other people. They say that in Chicago crime is down. It sure does not seem that way when you hear of shootings each night on the news. Lots of senseless murders going on. I went though lots of psychological harassment in my life, I never hurt anyone. These people are just murdering each other for any little thing. It really sucks to have to listen about other people doing bad things to others and just doing bad things in general.

Celebrities

On top of all the random people murdering others, I have to listen to the very good fortune of sports stars, celebrities and famous people. These people have more money than God and we have to listen about and be impressed by every thing that these people do or say. It seems like TV rubs common people’s noses with the good fortune of others. I don’t own a Porsche, I don’t live in a mansion. I don’t have a million dollars. I am just a common citizen that lives in the South suburbs of Chicago. I don’t even have enough money to travel. I can’t even travel, which really hurts me a lot. I can’t see new places or see different people. I am just living in a basement in my parents house.