Things have been calm

The dust has settled

The most recent “excitement” in this household was my dads health scare. I am so happy that my dad is back to normal and he did not suffer a stroke. It was a scary few days. I love my parents very much, and I hope they will be active for years to come. Money can’t replace a loving family. I still wait for my social security. We will see if I get it. It would be handy if I did get it.  At 53, I am not sure what types of jobs would accept me at my age. I wish I could consider myself retired.

Back to therapy

I have decided to go back to group therapy at Ingalls Hospital. It is an outpatient program. I attended sessions a few times in the past. On two occasions I had the feeling that certain people were attending on my behalf. I did not choose to get a face to face meeting with certain people, and I probably missed out on something. If I go back,  I am not sure if the same therapists would be there or if they could reach out to certain people that I am in the sessions again. I go to these therapy sessions to simply vent and gain coping skills that would help me mentally. I think after August 1st, I will make the phone call to their office and see if I can attend sessions again.

I wish I was wealthy

I wish I was wealthy. Right now we are a middle class family. I have failed at becoming successful at most things I have tried. I never earned vast amounts of money or gained any type of popularity doing anything. I tried to promote my photography. That failed and I was not able to find any galleries that would accept me as a resident artist. I stopped trying. I feel I am a person with certain talents and skills, I just never got recognized and helped with what I wanted to do. Eventually, Ill take more photos. I do wish I was a millionaire. I think I could handle it well. I would not be a jerk if I was wealthy, and I doubt it would lead me into any dark areas. With money, I could actually travel and document my travels with my photography. Currently I don’t have any money and I am stuck at my parents house. But I do have an important job. I am helping my parents in their elderly years. I suppose I failed at many things that would bring me success and solid friendship, but  have succeeded in being a good son and a fairly honest and ethical citizen.