Things have got me down

Lots of things have me down

Over 5 years ago I started a claim for my Social Security disability. It’s been denied over three times, now its in front of the appeals committee. I have a “back up” claim in the works. I doubt I will get it. Also now that Trump and the GOP have tried to take over Social Security. At 53 years old, and having spent over 5 years unemployed, I may try to find a job again. So me having spent so many years waiting and not gaining anything has be down. Shifting to things that are not happening to me, I watch TV and the news every day. It seems like the most disrespectful and mean, annoying people are the one’s making all the money. With mean people, I just look at Trump, his family, and the GOP Republicans. Very mean people. They are no way public servants. They don’t care about the common people. They take things away from the weakest people in society. They punish the weakest people that have no way to defend themselves. Currently in 2025 the United States of America is not normal. It’s being led by very mean, weird, criminal like traitors. It really worries me and depresses me. I watch the news each evening, people are killing other people every day. Just bad people on the TV that I have to hear about. Where are the good people?? I try to  be good and make a conscience effort to try and behave myself.  Thing’s I am seeing in society is just making me feel numb and depressed.

What I am doing currently?

Well, I don’t have any money to take any trips and see new places. So I mainly stick around my parents house. 96% of the day I am in the dark basement computer room. Just doom scrolling my social media accounts. I scroll through YouTube. I try not to go crazy buying stuff on Amazon. The computer is keeping me sane  and also I am at a risk of going insane from the same device. I really wish I could have been some how successful with my photography. However I may not be as good as I once thought. It is a nice hobby I guess. I may go back to therapy at Ingalls Hospital. Maybe I can connect with some nice people there. I feel alone and maybe I can connect with a person that would be my friend.

I wish I could re do my past

I suppose I had certain choices in my past. I wish I had made different choices. However those moments are past, I will try and keep myself receptive to new opportunities. Maybe I can hook up with cool people in my future. I suppose I have to make an effort to get out of my parents basement more. Soon, I will try to get back into group therapy again.