Rich and famous

I think I would  do ok

I was thinking about my life. Thinking about events and things I went through in my past. Stuff that was my doing and situations that were not my doing. I have regrets. I first off consider myself a good son to my parents. I am a good family member and I think I am a good citizen. I may have had the opportunity to leave my family and go with a group of people to who knows where. I missed that chance. I do regret it, but to me at the time I thought I had to choose between my family, my parents and the group of people and what they were offering. I chose to stay with my parents and to be in their lives and help them as they got older. My decision hurts me mentally each day a little. But I think I am a rock solid man that could not turn his  back on his loving parents. I had to try and pay them back for everything.

Looking back to my youth

If I had the looks and my body of my twenties again. I would say, I would go out and try to be rich and famous. I was so outgoing when I was younger. I was afraid of less things. My practical thoughts in my life kept me from taking any risks and becoming rich and famous. My practical ways have chained me down. I have regrets. Now that I am 52, and lost my looks I still am upset at my choices or lack of decisions. Right now, it would be good to be well known over my photography. It would also  be nice to be introduced to maybe a few certain big named people that may have an interest in me or my photography. Since  I feel my looks are gone, I would not really want to be famous, but I figure having famous friends in high places, could not hurt.

These days

I think in these days being famous and rich is a bit sketchy and dangerous. I am sure these famous people have stalkers and all sorts of strange people trying to follow them around. Times have changed. I think society has changed. I think for the most part people have  become more dangerous. I am not scared of things, but concerned. People these days just don’t know when to stop. Excess is dangerous. Too many extreme people out there with extreme thoughts. I think my practical thoughts keep me grounded when I am out mixed in with certain people. My father is the one who instilled practicality into me. Also before I do anything, I think 20 steps ahead. of my actions. Maybe people in society today are too impulsive. That leads them to problems. They don’t think before they act.

I have my regrets

I could have been rich and famous and been within a certain circle of people. Right now, I am old and alone. I am 52 so not sure what the future will bring. Maybe I can get an introduction one day into that certain circle. I can’t force myself into that position, it has to happen organically. There are things you can’t force in life.