No one cares

No one cares about the small guy

As I watch TV I see the people on TV. Politicians, sports stars, movie stars, famous people, rich people. What have you. The unknown and “common people” are ignored. No one helps these people. No one cares about these people. It’s so sad. I consider myself a “common person”. Even though I tried to gain exposure through my skills with photography and graphic  design, I feel that I am unknown and a “common” person. No outsiders from my family care about me. In the past I sure was psychologically teased by certain people, but do actually help me? Nothing. A big fat zero. It was a bit unfair what went on in my past. Stronger people bigger people playing their mind games on me? I was upset for a while, now it’s ancient history to me. I feel I am the better person. I took the teasing and bullshit and never killed myself or hurt myself or anyone else.

It’s all about “me”

In the United States every man is for themselves. People who make it big and get rich and famous, once they are operating on that level, they branch off into other things and make more money and gain more fame. There are those who make it big that are totally greedy bastards and want more after getting a lot. I can’t stand though types. Elon Musk is a guy who is a bastard. I feel Musk cheated somehow in business and thats why he is supposedly the richest person in the world. Mentally I think Musk is sick in the head. Bastards like him give wealthy people a bad reputation.

It does make me sad

It does make me sad seeing that people that I see on TV regularly have more than I will ever hope to have. It makes me feel like a loser and I did not apply myself in life. I know that I should not compare myself to others I see on social media or TV. I do however. I am 52, never owned a house, and live with my parents. I am a good citizen, I  try to be honest. I would never hurt anyone physically, emotionally or financially. However I find myself feeling small and I feel like a total loser. I only have 5 friends.

I do like money

I do like money, I am not claiming to be better than anyone else. However there  are things I would never do to get lots of money. I would never steal, or cheat to get money. I would never hurt or kill to get money. Money is temporary, sure it’s nice to be able to purchase a Porsche 911 or have two Porsche’s. A big mansion. Live in California etc. But there are things I will just not do to get lots of money. I still feel like a loser though.