My looks

I could be more well known

I could be more well known, but to  be honest, I am 52, balding, fat and I have grey hair. I am not too confident in my looks. I don’t think I am very attractive anymore and I have kept myself out of face to face encounters. It’s stupid on my part because I know I am missing out on things in life with other people. I passed up many good opportunities  because of the thoughts on my appearance.

When I was younger

I really could have been a movie star when I was younger. I really was good looking. Also in shape. Now, at 52, I don’t know anymore. I feel that I have isolated myself because am not confident in my looks. I would love to make new friendships with people. I try to go to my local library, I am a member of an art gallery in Chicago Heights, Illinois called Union Street Gallery. Still I have not made any solid new friendships.

I had people reaching out to me

I know I had “certain” people reaching out to me in the past, at the deli counter at my local grocery store. However I foolishly walked away from the conversation. I did not mean to. I feel that would have been my chance to have been introduced to some really good people. I have been writing about things involving these certain people for months on this website. I think that moment has passed. It would be great if one of those certain people would reach out to me again at my local library. I doubt these “certain people” are really visiting this website. I doubt they care anymore. I did have a chance to be introduced to certain people. Now that chance is over. I am pretty much alone and isolated. It would be great if one of those people “my one true friend” etc… could reach out to me one more time. I could use a mentor.