I never went anywhere

I had many chances

Over the course of my life, starting in 1999, I had many opportunities to leave my home town. Since 1999 off and on, I may have rubbed elbows or became known by a few big name people. I hope I am still on good terms with these people. I really didn’t do anything to anyone intentionally.  However it happened, I became known by a group of influential people. There were situations that were set up by others and I just did not react  to the situations. I didn’t react to certain situations because I first off was concerned.  Second, I was concerned about leaving my family.  I consider myself a sensitive and kind of shy person.  After many years of thinking, and wondering, I am grateful that these certain people in the last encounter, reached out to me in friendship. When I went to Ingalls and the one lady said to my face “Your one true friend will find you”. That really did touch me. I missed my chance to meet “my one true friend” because I was scared. Hopefully “my one true friend” is not mad or disappointed. I was concerned about leaving my family. So now I don’t have a face to put to all the events that went on in my past. Just a personal mystery. Certain things were annoying me over the years, but I am not mad about anything anymore.

My family

Thankfully I come from a very good family. Caring and loving. My parents are awesome. I tell my mom I love her and kiss her on the cheek every morning. My mother is an angel. My father is a silent and tough man. Great German parents. I was afraid to leave them. Now I have to stay with them and help them in their old age. If anyone of that group would want to reach out again, I am still in my same places.  I am still with my parents. My parents taught me about right and wrong my entire life. I like to think at 52, I have a good set of ethical and moral codes that I do live by.  I am just a normal, regular US citizen. I would like to be known as a great photographer and graphic designer. I am a bit shy in face to face meetings so I am not super well known about my skills and creativity. I feel that more outgoing people get to be well known for their skills more.

My future

I am still at the house with the parents. Lansing, Illinois is my home base. I don’t care for Lansing. Its boring and I will eventually move when my parents are gone. I would like to move out West somewhere in the American Southwest. If the political climate gets worse, I may want to move to Germany. I do know German and could get around in Germany and Europe. I am not sure what I will do that far into my future. For right now, I will be watching my health. I have become diabetic a few years ago. I go to the doctor every three months for blood work. I also still try and improve my diet. I have stopped drinking and going to bars in my area. If any of these group of people want to catch up to me, they won’t find me at a bar. I will most likely be at a grocery store or the library.