Hopes and dreams

My future

As I have been repeating on this website in my blog posts. My past had some pretty strange events happen. These events were not of my doing. Outside people and groups of people were focusing their efforts to annoy or cause me problems in the past. It was mentally upsetting to me and caused me much distress. I think that though, somehow, I may come into some kinda sum of money? No one has mentioned that to me to my face. I just feel that I was ganged up on and I deserve a decent amount of money to compensate years of off and on abuse. I did at one point feel my car was being bugged and my phone and computer was hacked. I am sure people went through my emails and Internet traffic. For what, I have no idea. I also feel that a certain three letter agency was surveilling me at one point. I feel that some people were trying to get me in legal trouble. For that, I think I am owed a good chunk of money.  I am talking millions. I think it would be only fair. I am one person, and all these people were using their resources to cause me problems. It was not fair I am only one common person. Just an ordinary citizen. I think of myself as a small person with limited resources and I could in no way cause “big people” any distress or loss of sleep. I think when they were fucking with me, it was not fair. I am not mad about the past events anymore. I am thinking I will be composited for all of the  bullshit later in life. I hope I am not disappointed.  I think that would suck and be really shitty.

If I come into money

If I should  come into money and I no longer have my parents, I would like to move West of Chicago into the American Southwest. I was thinking I would want to move to California. However in California the fires freak me out. I would hate to have a house there and have it risk burning down everything I have. I think I would like to live in Santa Fe, New Mexico. Santa Fe is pricy as hell, I know this. In Santa Fe, I would like a modest house, one that I can clean myself, and I would like to rent out a warehouse to have a car collection. I guess that is my dream. Also, I want to travel. Road trips with my camera throughout the US, and Canada. Also trips to Europe. I am 52 and I know that I may have only 30 years left to do this. We shall see. I know if I came into serious money, I would be responsible with it and would not use it for bad purposes. Right now, I live with a total of $200 in my bank account every two weeks. I don’t have any money and I would appreciate if I got millions. I would not waste the money and use it to enrich myself with travel.

Currently waiting on Social Security

I am days away from my final Social Security phone hearing. I hope that I finally get my Social Security disability. I think I deserve it from all the mental issues I have had in my past. The mental issues people were giving me and my own mental issues that I have. I would then get on Medicare with my health care needs and get a small monthly check. That would relive me of my current strains.