Holding pattern

My life is in a holding pattern

I find that most my life I have been waiting on things. My parents told me when I was younger that I had to wait and be patient. I have been so patient, and I am waiting on things to change for me. The one thing I am waiting for right now is on the Social Security Judge to rule on my Social Security Claim. I expect a decision around December. I hope I get the Social Security. It would really help me out a lot.

While I am waiting

Since I can’t do anything right now, I am trying to take care of my physical and mental health. I routinely see my doctor every three months for blood work. Since I became diabetic, I try to keep tabs on my A1C level and other blood levels. I see my psych professional every two months to see if I need my psych meds changed or altered. I am on Medicaid since I have no money.  Medicaid has been great, I am getting good health care. My doctors have been ok. Taking care of your health and mental health is free so why not do it?

Still lacking ambition

I still lack the energy to go out and shoot new photos. I checked over my camera equipment, everything seems to be working fine. I just have to pick a day or night and go out and shoot. I am not too eager to go to downtown Chicago for photos at night. Not that I am scared of going downtown, but I am concerned about walking around with all my expensive camera lenses and my camera. Every time I have gone downtown, I never was bothered. Also there is parking and gas costs that keep me away from going downtown. I see myself going in the country and photographing barns and other abandoned structures at night. They call it “Light painting” lighting up structures with a powerful flashlight and colored theater gels. I feel I will more likely go take photos in the country over going downtown.