Day to day life

Simply mundane

My day to day life is simply mundane. I am living with the parents. Since my parents are elderly, I help them out with certain tasks around the house. I love them and I know that I have to repay them for all the things they have done for me. So I stay and help. I am not employed and I don’t expect myself to re enter the workforce. I am awaiting my Social Security Disability. I suppose at 52 I can consider myself retired. Not bad  I guess. I am out of the 5 day daily grind. No more frustrating commutes to a job, no more dealing with asshole co workers. I am done with that stuff.

Stuff of my past

I have moved on I guess. I was at one point fairly popular with certain people it would seem. I really have questions as to what things were all about. I also have questions to exactly who took an interest in me and my family. I only have one phrase that was spoken to me face to face. “My one true friend”. Ok so what was that all about. I know I missed my chance to find out exactly when I turned my back on the lady at the Jewel deli counter. Yea, I know this may sound strange to the average person reading this. There was a connection between the group at Ingalls and Jewel deli counter. I know it, but I have no one to confirm it with. So I have no one to talk about these things. I can only write about things on my personal website and maybe hope that the people that were once taking an interest in me, would read this website and maybe reach out again. Maybe I was not ready to accept their friendship. I did have to take care of my mom and dad, so maybe I could not have left my area or my home town at this time. Maybe one day, these people or one of them who knows what went on with me and that group, will reach out to me in my area.

I suppose I missed a few opportunities

I know I missed out on things. Things that were laid in my face. I do wonder what my life would be had I accepted certain things. But I made my choice, or rather I did not make a choice. So those opportunities have expired. I am sure that certain people lost patience with me. I am 52 so who knows how long I will live, maybe I will cross paths with someone that knows something, or maybe “My one true friend”. I think I would like that.